I edit a lot on this blog.
I don't write about my job, my struggles, my bills, my personal trials.
I write about my beautiful babies and my wonderful, supportive husband.
Because if I wrote about how I am going through one of the greatest trials of my life right now then I wouldn't take enough time to realize how much I am blessed.
And I need my blog to be happy because I am not ready to share my struggles because they are too fresh and I am too upset. And in the whole scheme of things they really aren't that bad.
Maybe next year. Maybe next year I will write a book. It won't be a book like twilight. Because this book isn't full of dreamy vampires. This book will be full of mean people who want to make life harder for those around them because they are unhappy with themselves.
I don't know why I am going through these things. I just know that it will pass and there is a reason for me to be going through this. Maybe preparation for a future trial. Maybe someone can learn from me. Or maybe because there is something awesome on the other side of it.
I like that.
There is something awesome for me at the end of this and I will work as long and as hard as I can until I get there.
And trust me- when I get there I will let you know.
